I know I haven't been posting regularly again like I keep saying I will. I think there's just so much history with this blog, it's hard to come on here since I'm in such an entirely different place now. On here, it feels like I have to talk about ED stuff because that was kind of the whole purpose/reason I started blogging. And I know that it's my blog, I can write about whatever I want, but it just seems weird continuing on this blog that is so set in the past when now I am in a new phase of my life. Also, I've been more open lately with people knowing I have a blog, and I've actually shown a couple people my blog who I know in real life. I think I'm okay with people I know reading this now, during that time of my life I was so secretive and shut of from those around me I would just about die if anybody found my blog. But now I'm very open about that part of my life, I am fine to talk with people about it and I guess I'm now open to people I actually know seeing this blog. (So hi if I know you, based on page views I'm pretty sure you guys are reading this haha.)
But anyways, now that I'm in this new phase of my life and coming up on some major changes (moving away to COLLEGE across the country in August..!! I know where I'm going to college now by the way c: not gonna say where I'm going here on the internet though haha, wouldn't want people from college finding this high school blog…..? But I got into my top choice!!). So I'm thinking of starting a totally new blog on which I can just be free to write about anything in my life to help deal with and process everything huge coming my way in the next year (and beyond). I'll post again about it if I actually decide to do this :)
But anyways, time for my news…
I was (finally) declared healthy today!
No more doctors appointments!! I already stopped therapy and nutrition appointments ages ago and I think it's been like a year since seeing my psychiatrist.. but I've just had to keep going back to the doctor every few months, my body was happy at a certain weight and just wasn't budging, but my doctor didn't want to let me go before officially being 100%. Which is ridiculous in my opinion, I mean I understand where she's coming from and agree with her on making sure I'm healthy, but in my case I have absolutely NO idea what I weigh, and I'm totally fine with that. My weight bears no importance in my life whatsoever, I don't even think about it. I feel great where I am, I'm healthy and happy both physically and mentally, I just thought it was silly to have to KEEP going back just cause my body's natural weight was a few pounds below whatever random number they pulled out of their equations or however they do those things.
But anyways, that's not important, what IS important is I am now officially healthy! I can finally move on entirely from that stage of my life. It is such a great feeling. I think I'll write another post in the next few days just reflecting on everything- being declared healthy, the whole recovery process, etc. I would do more in depth reflection right now but it's past 12 and I really need to get some sleep before school tomorrow. (which by the way I am already getting an insanely bad case of senioritis, it's only the beginning of the semester too….) So that's all I have to say!