Saturday, December 20, 2014

Hello there??

Hello everybody!

Wow, this feels strange to be writing on here again. It's almost been a full year since my last post. I'm not sure what exactly inspired me to come back on here..! But I'm surprised to see that people actually still look at my blog, and I came back to some lovely comments and emails from all kinds of people., which really means a lot to me! So the next few days I'm planning to get back to some of you, even if it's super late:)

So what's up with me? Well, I just finished my first semester at college.. WHAT??! I can't even believe that it's over already. So much has happened in the past year, as well as just the past few months of starting college, there's no way I can possibly write about it all right now.

But anyways, I just kind of wanted to check in, say hello there to anybody out there who might be still checking my blog? I'm planning to write some more posts tomorrow, I think I want to start getting into blogging again, it was so helpful for me through the whole recovery process, and I think it could be helpful for me again now as I navigate college and these new steps/challenges in my life. Again, not going to get into anything in detail just yet, I still have a final paper to finish that I should be working on currently:)

I don't know if I will be starting a new blog or continuing with this one, but I'll definitely have at least a few more posts on here in the coming days/weeks! And please feel free to drop me a comment or an email, I'd love to talk with you and say hi, I miss this whole blogging community, I feel like I made some really good friends through these blogs in the past! I haven't forgotten about you all!

So, until next time I guess! I hope you are all doing well!

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

News + New blog?


I know I haven't been posting regularly again like I keep saying I will. I think there's just so much history with this blog, it's hard to come on here since I'm in such an entirely different place now. On here, it feels like I have to talk about ED stuff because that was kind of the whole purpose/reason I started blogging. And I know that it's my blog, I can write about whatever I want, but it just seems weird continuing on this blog that is so set in the past when now I am in a new phase of my life. Also, I've been more open lately with people knowing I have a blog, and I've actually shown a couple people my blog who I know in real life. I think I'm okay with people I know reading this now, during that time of my life I was so secretive and shut of from those around me I would just about die if anybody found my blog. But now I'm very open about that part of my life, I am fine to talk with people about it and I guess I'm now open to people I actually know seeing this blog. (So hi if I know you, based on page views I'm pretty sure you guys are reading this haha.)

But anyways, now that I'm in this new phase of my life and coming up on some major changes (moving away to COLLEGE across the country in August..!! I know where I'm going to college now by the way c: not gonna say where I'm going here on the internet though haha, wouldn't want people from college finding this high school blog…..? But I got into my top choice!!). So I'm thinking of starting a totally new blog on which I can just be free to write about anything in my life to help deal with and process everything huge coming my way in the next year (and beyond). I'll post again about it if I actually decide to do this :)

But anyways, time for my news…

I was (finally) declared healthy today! 

No more doctors appointments!! I already stopped therapy and nutrition appointments ages ago and I think it's been like a year since seeing my psychiatrist.. but I've just had to keep going back to the doctor every few months, my body was happy at a certain weight and just wasn't budging, but my doctor didn't want to let me go before officially being 100%. Which is ridiculous in my opinion, I mean I understand where she's coming from and agree with her on making sure I'm healthy, but in my case I have absolutely NO idea what I weigh, and I'm totally fine with that. My weight bears no importance in my life whatsoever, I don't even think about it. I feel great where I am, I'm healthy and happy both physically and mentally, I just thought it was silly to have to KEEP going back just cause my body's natural weight was a few pounds below whatever random number they pulled out of their equations or however they do those things.

But anyways, that's not important, what IS important is I am now officially healthy! I can finally move on entirely from that stage of my life. It is such a great feeling. I think I'll write another post in the next few days just reflecting on everything- being declared healthy, the whole recovery process, etc. I would do more in depth reflection right now but it's past 12 and I really need to get some sleep before school tomorrow. (which by the way I am already getting an insanely bad case of senioritis, it's only the beginning of the semester too….) So that's all I have to say!