Friday, May 10, 2013

10 May


Graduation is exactly four weeks from today. It's almost summer. Just one more final push to the end.

Today was pretty uneventful.. I went to classes. I had lunch. I listened sadly while everybody made their prom plans (just keep reminding myself, I have next year. and maybe even a boyfriend by then?? ;)). Now I'm in the library until my friends are done with classes. I'm thinking of going into town to get a snack if I have enough money because I really don't feel like doing anything productive at the moment, still recovering from my last couple weeks of insane studying. Crossing my fingers that I have a few dollars.. because even though I ate my entire lunch today (yay! kicking this little relapse asap!!), I'm still STARVING right now, probably because yesterday my eating was all weird.. I cooked myself pasta for dinner around 4 and then had a bagpipe band rehearsal from 6:30 to 9:30, my usual dinnertime. And when I went home I was super hungry but nothing looked good to me so I didn't end up having much. So now I'm so so so so SOO hungry. Maybe I'll get a bit of frozen yogurt, that sounds good!

Tonight I'm planning on going to dinner with my mum and then heading to the ice rink for a couple of hours (FINALLY). I want to go shopping, need some more summer clothes now that it's warm weather (I NEED this amazing dress, only $10!!!!), but with the current state of my wrists and legs, I'm not so sure that's a good idea to do today. SO regretting that. And I just found out that I have a doctor appointment on monday with my ED doctor, crappppppppp, there will be questions and I'm not too excited for that, it was just a little blip and it won't happen again (or not regularly, I'm not going back down that path. As I said, I'm kicking this backtracking before it gets serious.) So hopefully that goes well :/

As a final little remark, I just have to say, there are some seriously strange people that come to the library, LOL. I feel very uncomfortable a lot of the time surrounded by people talking to themselves or waving their arms around strangely....... -.-

Hope you're all having good days, happy to say that this is a relatively good one compared to my recent days :)


  1. Graduation?! That's awesome!! I still have another year of school (sadly) but hey, then I'm done!! I don't think I'm quite ready to grow up yet. (:
    I hope you got to go get a snack, and that you feel better! That dress is cute! I bet you'd look amazing in it. (:
    Going to the ice rink sounds like a ton of fun. If you do end up going, I hope you have a really good time. Good luck in the doctors appointment on Monday as well. If/when she asks, just be honest. But also tell them that you're getting it back on track? Honesty is probably the best, if you were to try and hide it it would make it seem like you're relapsing more than what they would think if you're honest. (I hope that made sense)
    Way to go with eating your lunch, you can totally get back on track and not relapse. I believe in you, and I'm always here for support if you need it. I will do my best.
    I go to the library all the time, and I see a lot of strange people as well. Sometimes it's amusing, but I try to not notice because I always feel rude. Haha
    I'm glad you're having a good day though, love. Keep it up! Xx

    1. Thank you so much for all your support :) I have another year of school as well, but all of my close friends are graduating this year so graduation date is still looming in my mind, I have maybe 2 good friends in my grade -.- I used to be really worried about it, but I think it'll be okay, I've been working on making more friends for next year. I seriously wish I was graduating this year though, I am so ready to leave home and start my own life, haha! I can't wait for college!