Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Updates! I'm back!

"I am too mentally unstable for this 'sweater in the morning, no sweater in the afternoon' kind of weather."

I saw that on tumblr today, and that totally describes me at the moment, hahaha :)

Hello everybody!!! (if anybody still reads my blog after such a long pause??).

I really want to get back into blogging, I missed it so much lately but for some reason I just haven't had the mental energy at all to write posts. I think with so much therapy every day, it's just so hard to sit down and write more about everything. And also with the monotony of day after day in recovery program.

But things are changing and hopefully i'll get back to the blogg!

So, what's happened since I fell out of blogging? Hmm. Well, I'm back in school now, doing a half schedule. That's pretty nice, having less pressure. And I've continued in my program, going to school in the morning and program for the rest of te day. It was going okay. But I started to kind of go downhill. And then all of a sudden insurance (I could go on and on and on about those idiots...) decided to drop me from my program a couple weeks ago. My therapist argued with them a ton and got me 8 more days, spread over 3 weeks, so I could at least ease out. So I have tomorrow and tuesday and thursday next week, then I'm done with my program. My doctor has been talking a lot lately about sending me to a 6 months residential program a few states away from me....... :O. But I've been open to it, maybe it would help me to get better. But I'm thinking less that that is going to happen now. It was extremely probable for a time. But I'm doing a little better now than I was, and I am actually seeing some progress that I have made in my time in treatment.. I mean, I'm far from better right now. But at least there's little tiny things I've noticed..? I'll write another post about it, I'm exhausted right now and don't really feel like getting into it :) But I think I might do okay without program. It will be really hard though.. and with all the sudden freedom I'll have..? It will definitely be a lot of unknowns.

Well, there's an update on everything going on up to now.. or not really emotionally, but at least what I've been up to? I'm WAYYY too tired to even get into any emotions right now from all the therapy today, so I'll just leave that for another post as well. And I'm also feeling a headache coming on :( so I think I'll head off to bed a little earlier than usual now! It would be nice to get another hour or so of sleep.. I think I'll take advantage of my lack of homework tonight. I feel like I should be studying more???? I think I'm slipping back into 'obsessive worker/studier' a little bit.. :/ need to catch myself before I get too crazy hard on myself!! 

Well I think I'll leave it at that for tonight, I hope you're all doing well! :) Let me know if you're still here! Haha! 

And I think it's safe to say.. you can expect another post tomorrow :) 

Goodnight! (Good afternoon? Good morning? Whatever applies to you, haha!!)

^^^all old pictures.. but. just incase you had forgotten what I looked like since it's been so long, lol!!

1 comment:

  1. Hi! Ohh no i'm sorry about insurance...:( The programme away from home sounds great though and I like that you're so open for it!! I hope/there MUST be a way!!!!:)
    DON'T go overboard with studying now, that's just putting too much useless pressure onto need all your energy for treatment now.....and THAT'S OKAY. Your no 1 priority should be your health:) don't worry you're not studying enough...i get that as well, and it's not true!!! It's our perception.... Wish you a nice , sucessful day! xxx :)