Sitting on the front lawn of my school, crying. Feeling completely alone. There's nobody to talk to right now.
Horrible day. I feel like total crap right now.
Talked to Darin in the morning instead of going to first class. That was good. She's worried about me and told me to try to get through my other classes and come back in after school to see how i'm feeling and if anything needs to be done. She made me promise many times to come in and said if I didn't, she'd call anybody she could to try to figure out where I am and even come to my house to talk to me if she couldn't find me.
Got through the rest of the day. And came in after school but she was in a meeting or something. And shes been in in it for 45 minutes now, the office person (shes really really great) told me that I didn't have to sit there anymore, she would tell Darin I was there and I would go in tomorrow.
Now I'm feeling absolutely horrible, completely alone. Nobody to talk to. S just flew across the country. No friends anywhere. I can't even talk to my parents right now, they're super bush with work and won't be home till late. I think I'll go check if the meeting is done one more time now before I take the 3:15 bus home.
I feel so horrible right now. I just want to end everything.