I was wondering the past couple days.. how skinny am I really? Because when I look in the mirror, all I see is all of this fat all over. I think- how could I possibly have an eating disorder, I'm not even skinny. I know that I'm not fat, and I don't think i'm overweight or anything when I see myself. But I definitely don't look extremely skinny. I just look normal, which in my eyes is bad.
But then I go to the doctor and apparently I'm dangerously low weight. My body has used up all of the fat so then it starts using the mylin layers of fat surrounding axons in my brain. And it starts using the heart as protein for energy. Making my heart smaller and screwing up my thoughts. But I think, how is that possible? I have all this fat left on my body.. but they say that I don't?
And I wish I could know what my weight is. But they won't tell me.. :/