Wednesday, March 28, 2012

I wish

I wish I could go to the kitchen and get something to eat, just because I'm hungry. 
I wish I could eat whatever I want, whenever I want, and not even think about it. 
I wish I didn't get huge anxiety attacks whenever I eat. 
I wish I could look in a mirror and see something I like. 
I wish I could go through a whole day without having any suicidal thoughts. 
I wish I knew what it's like to think normally, what life is like to a normal person.
I wish I was able to smile. 

And that's just the beginning of the list. 

1 comment:

  1. It makes me so sad to read this... i used to think exactly the same way.
    I never thought it was possible to eat without anxiety.. to go to a shop and just buy what i fancied, to eat not care about the calories.
    But thats what im doing now... i eat without anxiety, without worry.
    You'll get there. You have to be strong and fight anorexia, you are a beautiful & amazing girl and you deserve so much better then this.
    Take one day at a time, you will get healthy you will realise that life is so much more then just food, weight and calories.
    Life is good (well.. not always.. but )!

    Keep strong, fight Ana.